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about failing by NikolasBrummer about failing by NikolasBrummer
so yesterday was the first day of the project where I happened to not really take a photo that I'd consider being a part of this project. I was at a vernissage in my hometown closely after school and stayed in the city for the rest of the evening; of course I had taken the camera with me, but somehow, it wasn't the same. I don't know. By that time yesterday evening I felt as if it was okay, I thought, "this is my project and I can skip as many days as I want to, it's not about actually taking a photo every single day but rather immensely dedicating yourself to your work for an entire year. And just because I don't take a photo today doesn't mean I should stop tomorrow."
And I was highly happy with that thought because I felt it was true. And I still do. But between then and now, which was about today at breakfast, I suddenly felt worthless. I had actually failed in some way. And I don't know why it devastated me so much at that moment. I felt completely empty and for a flick of an eye, I actually considered quitting.
Luckily I didn't. Luckily I got up and took this photo. And even though I am not happy with it and even though I am taking way too many photos of me lying somewhere lately, it doesn't matter. It's reality to me and eventually, all that matters is that I'm true to myself and to everyone else. I'm just going to try harder tomorrow.

(day twenty)

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model: myself.
equipment used: canon eos 1000D & canon 50mm f/1.4; tripod
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Mendedpixie Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
gmotier Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013
remind me one of my picture resignation [link] But unlike you, I dont show a lot this aspect of me . I prefer to hide it behind nude bodies
Butterface93 Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012
I like it!
Butterflow Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2012
Klasse Bild. Einfach auf allen Ebenen überzeugend. :)
NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012
Ich danke vielmals! :)
crashmypartyhard Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is beautiful---don't put yourself down, just keep doing what you love and don't quit unless you're sure. And I've never tired photography, but ever since my friend bought a nice camera, and iIve seen your art, I feel that I really want to try photography, like now. No procrastinating.
thank you for the inspiration!
NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2012
oh, I'm glad I could inspire you. As for myself, photography is one of the greatest things, if not the greatest, that happened to me.
you should try it!
Gorgone Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012
willpower :thumbsup:
Tr1plets Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2012
Wow. I'm glad you got this picture in and decided to keep going with your project. Every photo you've taken is beautiful - even if you feel that some are repetitive, maybe you can take that same pose and change the atmosphere with it? I look forward to more posts.

I also have a question; How do you feel about artists using your photos as reference for poses and the like? I'd certainly be interested in doing so and have [link] - simply let me know and I will adjust this accordingly, or continue to learn from your photos.
NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012
:heart: I am glad you are thinking that way, and yes, I'll probably work a lot on different atmosphere within the same concept and such, I mean, eventually this project is also there to improve my skills.

It's completely fine, trust me. I mean, as long as you credit me, I think there i absolutely no problem with it, rather, I find it interesting when artists take my work as references; and if you ever come around to it, I'd love to see more once you are done, simply out of curiosity. :aww:
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