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about failing by NikolasBrummer about failing by NikolasBrummer
so yesterday was the first day of the project where I happened to not really take a photo that I'd consider being a part of this project. I was at a vernissage in my hometown closely after school and stayed in the city for the rest of the evening; of course I had taken the camera with me, but somehow, it wasn't the same. I don't know. By that time yesterday evening I felt as if it was okay, I thought, "this is my project and I can skip as many days as I want to, it's not about actually taking a photo every single day but rather immensely dedicating yourself to your work for an entire year. And just because I don't take a photo today doesn't mean I should stop tomorrow."
And I was highly happy with that thought because I felt it was true. And I still do. But between then and now, which was about today at breakfast, I suddenly felt worthless. I had actually failed in some way. And I don't know why it devastated me so much at that moment. I felt completely empty and for a flick of an eye, I actually considered quitting.
Luckily I didn't. Luckily I got up and took this photo. And even though I am not happy with it and even though I am taking way too many photos of me lying somewhere lately, it doesn't matter. It's reality to me and eventually, all that matters is that I'm true to myself and to everyone else. I'm just going to try harder tomorrow.

(day twenty)

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photography & edit (c) me
model: myself.
equipment used: canon eos 1000D & canon 50mm f/1.4; tripod
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Mendedpixie Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Incredible.
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gmotier Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013
remind me one of my picture resignation [link] But unlike you, I dont show a lot this aspect of me . I prefer to hide it behind nude bodies
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Butterface93 Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012
I like it!
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Butterflow Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2012
Klasse Bild. Einfach auf allen Ebenen überzeugend. :)
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012
Ich danke vielmals! :)
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crashmypartyhard Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is beautiful---don't put yourself down, just keep doing what you love and don't quit unless you're sure. And I've never tired photography, but ever since my friend bought a nice camera, and iIve seen your art, I feel that I really want to try photography, like now. No procrastinating.
thank you for the inspiration!
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2012
oh, I'm glad I could inspire you. As for myself, photography is one of the greatest things, if not the greatest, that happened to me.
you should try it!
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Gorgone Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012
willpower :thumbsup:
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Tr1plets Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2012
Wow. I'm glad you got this picture in and decided to keep going with your project. Every photo you've taken is beautiful - even if you feel that some are repetitive, maybe you can take that same pose and change the atmosphere with it? I look forward to more posts.

I also have a question; How do you feel about artists using your photos as reference for poses and the like? I'd certainly be interested in doing so and have [link] - simply let me know and I will adjust this accordingly, or continue to learn from your photos.
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012
:heart: I am glad you are thinking that way, and yes, I'll probably work a lot on different atmosphere within the same concept and such, I mean, eventually this project is also there to improve my skills.

It's completely fine, trust me. I mean, as long as you credit me, I think there i absolutely no problem with it, rather, I find it interesting when artists take my work as references; and if you ever come around to it, I'd love to see more once you are done, simply out of curiosity. :aww:
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Tr1plets Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012
Yes, of course - and I look forward to watching you improve along the way. I think your shots are beautiful. As someone who doesn't dabble in photography and with little knowledge, I don't tend to watch many artists in that category. However, after seeing so much in your gallery, I simply had to add you to my watch. Keep it up!

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Certainly, credit will be given where it is due. If I do, I will be certain to shoot you a link in some form. Thank you!
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tuliipiie Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
gosh, i really, really love this though. there's lots of emotion, you're always so good with that. :heart:
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012
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AlexandraBaban Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2012  Professional Photographer
:D I did a project 365 last year and I definitely know the feeling of wanting to quit every now and then, especially in the beginning! That was the roughest, but the more time passed, the more it sort of became a daily routine, natural, effortless. And I have to say, this image is fantastic! Definitely keep it up! :blowkiss:
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012
It's rough indeed, but I do not want to stop. It's way too much fun eventually. :aww: Thank you!
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VMSnowflake Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2012
Aww :( Nikolas, your not worthless. We've all been there at some point. You talent is beyond perfection. I love this picture!
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012
I know, and it's all of us who need to get out of it. :)
Thank you for this.
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Kayru-Kitsune Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm glad you did stick to it - this picture says a lot to me from what I'm going through now.
When you take up a challenge, think of it as that - a chance to stretch your capabilities. NOT a mandate. This is what gets you down, because it's your brain's chance to kick at you for something it thinks you're SUPPOSED to be doing. But it's not. It's something that either you WANT to do or you don't, and if on that day you don't feel like it, then so be it.
There are so few things in this life that we can simply choose not to be consistent about and nothing bad comes of it. Preserve it for what it is - don't liken it to the rest of life, where these are actual responsibilities and they do have negative consequences when neglected.

Thank you for staying true to us and to yourself. This gives art its greatest potential, and I for one appreciate it greatly.
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012
You put this so extremely well, I can't even express how ... accurate it is,. It's our decision and we've only got to prove it to ourselves and no one else, but still we shouldn't put ourselves under too much pressure. And I think once you get there, it's fine.
Thank you for this comment, I really appreciate it.
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Kayru-Kitsune Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Absolutely. Stay well. ^^ <3
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BronzeRealm Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2012  Professional Artist
You are an artist of the highest caliber and I believe that tends to bring with it a degree of emotional suffering. Be true unto thy self and go with your heart and your gut. You have an amazing talent. Thank you for sharing the highs and the lows as a part of that talent. Just don't allow the dark times drag you down too far before you spread your wings and take flight again. [link]
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012
:heart: thank you dearly, I appreciate this so much.
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BronzeRealm Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012  Professional Artist
Be well my friend. Peace.
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Nilanja Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2012
find ich voll ok. einfach alles
und ich musste einfach lachen, als ich gelesen habe, dass du zu viele fotos von dir am boden liegen machst xD
das erste was ich mir nämlich dachte, als ich das foto gesehen hab war, jetzt liegt er schon wieder am boden ;P aber eh lieb gedacht, nicht böse oder so :huggle:

keep it up :dummy:
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012
:P werde ich, du stulle.
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:iconnilanja:
Nilanja Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012
was ist eine stulle? xD
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012
du.
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:iconnilanja:
Nilanja Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012
ein butterbrot?
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:iconnilanja:
Nilanja Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012
ok ich nehms mal so hin :P
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beachelf Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2012
:iconclappingplz::iconclappingplz: Bravo!

Nikolas.. First of all.. I hope you will consider that no one is "worthless". (especially you!).. Every single item in this universe, no matter how small or insignificant, has "value".

And second.. Please do not try harder tomorrow. Rather.. Let your heart be free and just do what feel rights. (imho.. You are BRILLIANT! And that shows in what you have shown us here on dA)
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012
:huggle: thank you so much, I really appreciate your honest words.
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