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and touch the grass with our hands by NikolasBrummer and touch the grass with our hands by NikolasBrummer
    barbecue food is good
    you invite me out to eat it I should go
    but Iím feeling kinda nervous
    and not quite myself
    so Iím running late on purpose
    and I know this wonít help
    how things have become between us
    if I go youíll give me hell
    and that I donít know how to fix
    is making me unwell, well

    I arrive at your house but youíve just got up
    and you are wearing a towel and your eyes look dark
    I help to dry your body and I see your cut
    so I give you a plaster and we cover it up
    I say have you been crying and you say shut up
    so we sit in the garden and touch grass with our hands

    the sun is going down now and itís been okay
    you tell me all the things you did while I was away, and this worries me so much
    but you say your fine

    listen, can you hear it?
    if you speak, will I feel it?
    will it hurt?
    and I knew it
    I donít know

    I donít know how all people havenít got mental health problems. thinking is one of the most stressful things Iíve ever come across. and not being able to articulate what I want to say drives me crazy. I think I should read some more books, learn some new words. my sister used to read the dictionary Iím gonna start with that. Iíd like to travel. I want to see India and the pyramids, a whale and that race with all the bicycles in France. Iím not sure about rivers they scare me, but I love swimming, Iím good at it. and when I swim I count the laps and this helps me relax. when I was younger I saw a house burnt down and I walked past it for the next six years. derelict, black, chalky and dangerous, I wondered if squatters lived there. Iím still not sure but I know there were not any parties it was a shit-hole. after a while the council got round to tidying up the town. they thought it was an eye-sore so they tore it down. behind the house there was a wall with a few bits of crappy graffiti and the word ďCUNTĒ written in giant letters and now I walk past that. I like going to the park. I like walking through it. I like taking my dogs there and friends and I like being alone. I like being able to shout but I wish I could be quiet. when Iím quiet people just think Iím sad and usually I am. sometimes when iím at really noisy train-station, of with the big fat trains like kings cross, I feel like putting down my bags and SHOUTING things out because Iíve got something to say.


    donít think, just try and sleep.

    - Kate Nash

sometimes your thoughts to a song change. sometimes you find yourself in another situation, another day of your life, and the melody that is playing and the words are being said suddenly appear so different. I never felt so about this one. I never thought it would change. all this time, I felt it so close to me, wrapping around my shoulders and embracing me like a friend that Iíd been searching for. it describes things so perfectly, I guess. how it is, how I wish itíd would be, how I wish it wouldnít be, and how it shouldnít be. it is just there, holding the simplicity of a confused mind. and maybe that is all I need.

(day eighty-five)

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gmotier Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013
very strong idea
JacquelineBarkla Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012  Professional General Artist
featured here! [link] :tighthug:
Celethiel-Gadbeyl Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2012   Writer
so you finally got yourself a twin :D
It looks kind of sad.
covert15 Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2012  Student Digital Artist
This is really cool.
NishitokyoGirl Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Student Writer
WeiŖt du, was ich mich manchmal frage? Warum du auf vielen Bildern, die du hier verŲffentlichst, so unglaublich traurig aussiehst.
NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2013
Ich antworte so spšt, ich frage mich Łberhaupt, ob es sich noch lohnt. Aber ich denke, die Frage ist gerechtfertigt ... die Zeit, als all das entstand, war eine sehr sehr traurige Zeit in meinem Leben, grundlos ... und so wohl auch meine Fotos. So wie traurige Sšnger traurige Lieder schreiben, ich setze es in Fotos um.
NishitokyoGirl Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Student Writer
Dann wŁnsche ich dir, dass du jetzt weniger traurig bist!
Seimei-sen Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Beautiful :)
blue-eyed-wolfgirl Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thinking is only for the brave, the strong, the courageous, and the serious. It takes everything to sit silently for a second and really think about the world. I ask the same does no one but a few have mental issues? I guess the answer is that they must not be thinking under the water...just at he surface. But the ocean is sooooo DEEP.

Beautiful picture as always. Have you ever thought of becoming a famous photographer? Because you already are. Even if you don't think so you will always be my favorite photographer, because you famous to me. :/ :hug: :heart:
NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012
the picture of an ocean fits. it is so deep and it invites you to swim. but who says you won't drown? who says you won't suffocate caused by all the water filling your lungs, your body? I find this ocean to be tempting, yet so dangerous as well.

Aha, you are so lovely. Thank you dear. :heart:
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