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clothesI felt the scratching material running over my skin like hot sand in the Sahara. "I'll be back in a couple of hours.", I said stiffly, almost numb.
"Fine.", he replied, his eyes focusing on the door as if there was a Hollywood movie playing on it.
I stepped outside the house, right into a puddle of mud. It was a cold and windy September day, no birds were singing and barely any cars passing by. I would just go to the woods, sit down on a bench, relax, maybe smoke a cigarette or two.
Step by step, my boots got wetter and wetter. So did my jacket. It was one of these old ones, those which they wore in the 80's movies I enjoyed so much. He ha

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_{barbecue food is good
you invite me out to eat it I should go
but I’m feeling kinda nervous
and not quite myself
so I’m running late on purpose
and I know this won’t help
how things have become between us
if I go you’ll give me hell
and that I don’t know how to fix
is making me unwell, well

I arrive at your house but you’ve just got up
and you are wearing a towel and your eyes look dark
I help to dry your body and I see your cut
so I give you a plaster and we cover it up
I say have you been crying and you say shut up
so we sit in the garden and touch grass with our hands

the sun is going down now and it’s been okay
you tell me all the things you did while I was away, and this worries me so much
but you say your fine

listen, can you hear it?
if you speak, will I feel it?
will it hurt?
and I knew it
I don’t know

I don’t know how all people haven’t got mental health problems. thinking is one of the most stressful things I’ve ever come across. and not being able to articulate what I want to say drives me crazy. I think I should read some more books, learn some new words. my sister used to read the dictionary I’m gonna start with that. I’d like to travel. I want to see India and the pyramids, a whale and that race with all the bicycles in France. I’m not sure about rivers they scare me, but I love swimming, I’m good at it. and when I swim I count the laps and this helps me relax. when I was younger I saw a house burnt down and I walked past it for the next six years. derelict, black, chalky and dangerous, I wondered if squatters lived there. I’m still not sure but I know there were not any parties it was a shit-hole. after a while the council got round to tidying up the town. they thought it was an eye-sore so they tore it down. behind the house there was a wall with a few bits of crappy graffiti and the word “CUNT” written in giant letters and now I walk past that. I like going to the park. I like walking through it. I like taking my dogs there and friends and I like being alone. I like being able to shout but I wish I could be quiet. when I’m quiet people just think I’m sad and usually I am. sometimes when i’m at really noisy train-station, of with the big fat trains like kings cross, I feel like putting down my bags and SHOUTING things out because I’ve got something to say.

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don’t think, just try and sleep.

- Kate Nash

sometimes your thoughts to a song change. sometimes you find yourself in another situation, another day of your life, and the melody that is playing and the words are being said suddenly appear so different. I never felt so about this one. I never thought it would change. all this time, I felt it so close to me, wrapping around my shoulders and embracing me like a friend that I’d been searching for. it describes things so perfectly, I guess. how it is, how I wish it’d would be, how I wish it wouldn’t be, and how it shouldn’t be. it is just there, holding the simplicity of a confused mind. and maybe that is all I need.

(day eighty-five)

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~gmotier Mar 7, 2013

very strong idea

*JacquelineBarkla Dec 11, 2012 Professional Photographer

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~Celethiel-Gadbeyl Nov 30, 2012 Writer

so you finally got yourself a twin

It looks kind of sad.

*covert15 Nov 30, 2012 Student Digital Artist

This is really cool.

~NishitokyoGirl Nov 29, 2012 Student Writer

Weißt du, was ich mich manchmal frage? Warum du auf vielen Bildern, die du hier veröffentlichst, so unglaublich traurig aussiehst.

=NikolasBrummer Mar 26, 2013

Ich antworte so spät, ich frage mich überhaupt, ob es sich noch lohnt. Aber ich denke, die Frage ist gerechtfertigt ... die Zeit, als all das entstand, war eine sehr sehr traurige Zeit in meinem Leben, grundlos ... und so wohl auch meine Fotos. So wie traurige Sänger traurige Lieder schreiben, ich setze es in Fotos um.

~NishitokyoGirl May 19, 2013 Student Writer

Dann wünsche ich dir, dass du jetzt weniger traurig bist!

~Seimei-sen Nov 24, 2012 Hobbyist Digital Artist

Beautiful

~blue-eyed-wolfgirl Nov 19, 2012 Student Traditional Artist

Thinking is only for the brave, the strong, the courageous, and the serious. It takes everything to sit silently for a second and really think about the world. I ask the same thing....how does no one but a few have mental issues? I guess the answer is that they must not be thinking under the water...just at he surface. But the ocean is sooooo DEEP.

Beautiful picture as always. Have you ever thought of becoming a famous photographer? Because you already are. Even if you don't think so you will always be my favorite photographer, because you famous to me. :/

=NikolasBrummer Nov 26, 2012

the picture of an ocean fits. it is so deep and it invites you to swim. but who says you won't drown? who says you won't suffocate caused by all the water filling your lungs, your body? I find this ocean to be tempting, yet so dangerous as well.

Aha, you are so lovely. Thank you dear.

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