unexpected and unavoidable, devastating and distressing. cut. you are smiling. what just was said, what just was done, doesn't it make you happier? the sun is shining on your skin again and suddenly you wonder how you got to this state of mind. cut. a dark hole, the dripping of water. creeping limbs, creeping bodies, haunting you. your mind. your heart. do you remember the sun? do you remember the light? you wish this were a tunnel so you could see it at least - but you don't. it's no tunnel. it's a hole and it's so dark that you can't see anything, you just hear your own voices in your head ... and that constant noise of dripping water. cut. the wind's in your hair. he is smiling. she is smiling. embraces, kisses ... tomorrow is going to be fine and you know that. you know you can do so much with your life. you can do so much, you are free! cut. you are trapped. after wandering around, you realized there was no door around you. maybe if you'd start to climb, you'd somehow get out of this cave. out of this cage. but you never really were convinced you had the strength to. you never really felt like that your body and mind is capable of all of this climbing, so why even bother trying? slowly you get used to the darkness around you, and even though it's still terrifying you, you accept the fact you can't change anything about it. cut. cut. over and over again. a cut is like a pause of darkness. you never know what will come afterwards. you never know what will happen next. but still ... the cuts continue. they always do. they're coming. it is coming. it's there.
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Your words bring up a hurt that even after many years, I can't get over. It's not that I am trying to relive the past, but every now and then I tend to wonder how I was put in the situation to be hurt in such a way. It haunts me so much that I don't dare get too involved with anyone, yet I yearn to be with someone. Double cut. The image makes the words more compelling. You are gifted in bringing out emotions.
k, I'm gonna go meditate. Hopefully I can see the daylight again. Not to worry, I normally do.
You're right. It's not like I was just trying to forget. It just gets put back and is a part of who we are. And yes you do learn to live with it, or go crazy otherwise. For some reason my frame of mind was vulnerable when I first read what you posted. But I read,looked at the image,and I felt the emotion.
You are very welcome. I too enjoy the conversations. I hope we continue having them.