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self-hatred by NikolasBrummer self-hatred by NikolasBrummer
deep down in our hearts, it lingers. it's this feeling; just a short time ago we told ourselves that no one really mattered in the sense of whatever they think of us, that's up to them and not to us. we no longer care and live up to no one's expectations; but the more we turn away from everyone else, the more we let go, the more we tighten our grip around ourselves. we want to succeed; not for them, not for her, but simply for ourselves. we've set limits, guidelines and rules ... and if we fail, we fall apart.
and the feeling comes creeping up inside of us and we can no longer help it ... we are numb. we are ourselves. we are worthless. and most of all ... we never had the decision if we wanted it to come this way or not. so all we do is watch the play.

(I really can't help it, usually I don't like writing something like this after an artist's-comment; but to everyone out there, I'm feeling fine today. I really do. just in case anyone worried or anyone wanted to cheer me up. you are all lovely souls)

(day twenty-three)

preach it; our art is free - join THE ART WARRIORS
photography & edit (c) me
model: myself
equipment used: canon eos 1000D & canon 50mm f/1.4; tripod
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:iconjanid:
Janid Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
very special idea
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Catweazle01 Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
looks like a scene from "Once upon  a time" ;-)
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lifes-image Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2014
Super awesome!
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:iconsunchayn:
sunchayn Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2014
love ur work.... Love 
so talented!
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Manovich-art Featured By Owner May 25, 2014
Your work is refreshing and new. Keep doing the amazing stuff you do.
You are a great model and inspire many people.
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Safirebluemoon Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
I love all your work your wonderful
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DolevElr Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Student Photographer
really love this pic and the concept but you can really sense that the mirror was not there and the reflection does not fit to the pose the model is in. other then that thats an amazing job!
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CS-Lovejoy Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013
I love this, it's very fantastical.
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GoombaPie Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2012
one of my favorites from your whole gallery for sure
:)
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Twentyone21w Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2012
When I first looked at it, I saw the inner demon concept, but than I thought about the Looking Glass from Alice Adventures in Wonderland. That made me think maybe you have to look pass your demons to find wonder.
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shajazz Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2012
superb
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:iconmikiluvzanime:
mikiluvzanime Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Wow okay ya can relate to is in every way on the planet.... Really amazing :clap:
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scorpiandoll Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
You always succeed in telling an amazing story with your pictures..I like that. I try the same...

I would like to tell you what I feel and see in your picture, but after reading your artist comment, it's like all my words disappear.

I'll try on this one: it's like you're afraid of yourself...it learns us a lesson that if we, ourself, are satisfied with who we are. Everybody else has to be satisfied with us.
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Binx17 Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012
love it!!
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:iconsadartmis:
sadartmis Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2012
you are marvelous !
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:iconjulie-tt:
Julie-tt Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
great!
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Ion-Swan Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Hell no!The artist's comment:iconcryforeverplz::iconletmehugyouplz:

"So all we do is watch the play."?Are you kiddin' Shakespeare?This one line gives the whole image's another feeling!OhMyGod,write more often Nikko!

On other news,I'm glad to see you're ok,and your editing is getting even better!The darkness on the eyes and the way your face looks,and also your body posture and the mirror hanging from nowhere and the fact that you're in the forest all alone,just with this awful feeling...Self-Hatred...I can't think of a better way to picture it.

Congratulations once again:iconclapplz:
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012
:heart: ah this made me smile so much. thank you love!
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Ion-Swan Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Glad to hear that,you're very welcome:tighthug:
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ReedVoskuil Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012   Traditional Artist
"so all we do is watch the play..." a powerful thought for a fantastic photograph...beautiful work.
~ R.
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012
thank you a lot, I'm glad you noticed it! highly appreciated.
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:iconreedvoskuil:
ReedVoskuil Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2012   Traditional Artist
You're welcome, my pleasure...and speaking of...it's good to see the ivy bloom through your lens. I just knew the dancer wanted to embrace his photographer as soon as I saw him...that look is probably what made you gregarious, too! :) Enjoy it all,
~ R.
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2012
:rose: that is such a lovely way of putting it, and it kind of stunned me that you noticed it; I mean, with the line, it was more or less intelligible, but that you noticed the dancer and my inner world just throughout my work, I find that fascinating.
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ReedVoskuil Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2012   Traditional Artist
You've always been eloquent...here, in symbols in your photographs and words, and the same when you're Tumbling. So 1+1 on this one was easy. You share that world so wonderfully that it's a real pleasure to see the author and photographer enjoying the happiness you deserve...and most importantly expressing those pleasures.
Best wishes, ~ R
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Anthoblack Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2012
Nice!
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EmmilliaBedillia Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012
Sometimes I think Nikko is my long lost soul buddy. His mind is mine exactly <3 but im sure alot of people feel that way ^^
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Gryffgirl Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012
Beautiful photo! :rose:
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ContagiousPixie Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012  Professional Photographer
Oh god I love this, as if you're afraid of the floating image of yourself, depicting depressive thoughts.
I can see the movement in your pose as if you're just about to lift yourself up and take flight away
from it in fear. I just hope that you're sucking in and that you burned your ribs to add definition to
them, and that you're not actually that dangerously thin... all the love my heart bares to you. :heart:
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012
Megan, thank you so much! I mean, your words always mean so much to me, and considering you ... you completely got what I wanted to put emphasize on, this makes me even happier. Thank you. :heart:
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ContagiousPixie Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2012  Professional Photographer
That's so great! And you're most welcome. :aww:
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Broken-Stars-ina-Box Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012  Student General Artist
I love the feelings you've expressed.
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gatomon90 Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Ohh...or even make you, the mirror, and your reflection in the mirror in black and white and the background in color. Would make you stand out more to me too. Just my thoughts on it though. Keep up the awesome work :)
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gatomon90 Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I love it. And I have an idea of what I think would be an interesting edit of the colors. If you made everything but you and the mirror, and your reflection in the mirror in black and white. Just to make them stand out that much more. I don't know why, but I love editing things to where only certain things are in color. XD I think it makes them pretty interesting or neat sometimes.

But, as I said, I love this just as it is still!
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organblower Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Nikko, the creator
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012
:heart:
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anneykat Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012
Einfach mal der Wahnsinn, wie Du aus solchen "Locations" so märchenhafte, ausdrucksstarke Bilder zauberst.
Dein Bilderstil ist wirklich sehr beeindruckend, und gleichzeitig auch so wahnsinnig inspirierend. :)
Auch hier ist dir eine wunderbare Aufnahme gelungen, und vor allem sehr ästhetisch.
Mehr davon!
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NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012
Oh, das ist so schön formuliert, danke sehr! Wirklich.
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unbreakable111 Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
this is so awesome. really intense. I love it. and I'm glad you're feeling better today (:
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MariaXXArt Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
hey das ist großartig ! mach weiter so ! ;D...übrigens find ich deine gallery echt cool ;D
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Ai-Uko Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012
just..awesome
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:iconthe-neon-affairs:
the-neon-affairs Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Amazing concept, Nikko. Reminds me of Snow White and the Huntsman. :D
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haannaah-the-cupcake Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012
i love this so much!!
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DeadSkarlett Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012
i really like this piece really good job :)
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