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the state that I am in by NikolasBrummer the state that I am in by NikolasBrummer
it seems to be such strange days that I'm tumbling through, my feet not quite dragging along pathways, my hands no longer reaching out like mantillas in the winter sky now that spring has settled on the trees and the leaves, each little cell blossoming, vibrancy in the air. they have let go of gloomy days and darkened times, seemingly there is no more to grasp. I used to look for the golden in the sunset and search for value in the dirt. but I have settled for less. I have settled for what is around and not what is to come. from the garden I smell the odor of roses in the rain and I gaze towards the sky, filled with birds rising high and higher, caught by a sudden sense of freedom.
I wish I could relate, I wish I could put pieces of shattered vases back to one. but they have shattered and so has my mind. the pain remains un-felt. it began to feel a little subtle and tender to have no head and a fickle heart with emotions unstable. the only thing I keep in mind is my dreams, the ones I had at night. maybe they speak honestly to me in a way I suspect no one else to do. interaction is such a hurtful thing when you don't know where you are.
and if I were to locate on a map for where I stand, I'd search for places I dream to see me in, or those that I am deathly afraid of. when in fact, all I long for is the truth and home.
I am weak no longer and deep no farther. hit a wall, fell to the ground, stretching out my limps to find comfort in the warmth the earth can provide.

no matter how hard I try to put myself into beautiful imagery, the less I understand what I am up to. I try to realize who I am at the moment, analyze each bit of it ..
when truly, the only thing I should have learnt to never analyze is me.
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ribaj Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013
I love the pic n more so ur thoughts :)
i sometimes feel some of what u hav written here
reddecatur Featured By Owner May 23, 2013
Nikolas...this has very deeply drawn me's one of your best...
TheDreamerIAm Featured By Owner May 22, 2013
Beautiful. Very beautiful. I felt the words the picture, all of it. You are very talented.
ConvictionbyLarm Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Student General Artist
Der Text unter deiner Photografie kriecht mir unter die Haut… danke für solch schöne Worte, auch wenn mir grad kein passenderes wort für schön einfällt.
akomorebi Featured By Owner May 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is so good, wow. Where was this taken?
NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner May 20, 2013
thank you a lot! :aww: it was taken on some small meadow in the suburbs of Düsseldorf, Germany.
NateDean8D Featured By Owner May 18, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh my goodness this is seriously bloody brilliant. I love all the colours in the picture, the bright light and the soft textures of the green. The way the body is positioned makes it seem like you're almost a part of the nature around you, looking out at the vast expanse that you can't quite comprehend but appreciate at the same time.

The meaning behind it all and your description of everything seriously gave me goosebumps. The way you think, and analyse and just view the world around you is so special, and I can relate so much to it it's scary. Good work, and keep it up <3
NikolasBrummer Featured By Owner May 20, 2013
this means so much to me, the fact you grasped all this and spilled it out to me. thank you very much for your words. I appreciate it! :rose:
AzRaIL922 Featured By Owner May 17, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
HIPSTER! :D nice mood
PippinFox Featured By Owner May 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Sometimes I find your descriptions even more beautiful than the photo :heart:
deer-o Featured By Owner May 17, 2013  Student Photographer
I want this sweater! lovely lighting (and sweater!)
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